Then & Where We're Headed

        5 months ago, after avoiding the scale for an entire year, I finally stepped on. My eyes welled up as I watched the needle swoosh passed 260 and 270, then 280, 290, and stopped right after 300. As if 299 wasn't enough! I immediately formulated a plot to drop weight. I went grocery shopping and got only healthy stuff. Did research - the whole 9 yards! After a month, I dropped 7 pounds!!! *cheer leader noises* Yea, well that didn't last long. I decided to celebrate my loss and I gained back every thing I lost... AND THEN SOME! 

        In April, I weighed in at my highest weight to date - a whopping 310 pounds! I was utterly disgusted with my self and decided I needed to get away!! From everyone and everything! I sent my self on a mini vacation. 3 months of semi-healthy eating and regular cardio, plus my metformin (to help with the insulin resistance) and birth control pills (to help regulate my menstrual cycle). I didn't weigh my self at all during those 3 months but did what I needed to. I came back home and ran to the bathroom. Undressed, closed my eyes, and stepped onto the scale. The scale screamed 290!! I dropped 20 pounds!! 

        I've been back for a month and despite doing practically no cardio (because I'm lazy), and just by eating semi-healthy and continuing with my meds, I've lost another 5 lbs! If that isn't motivation enough to go harder, I don't know what is! 

        So from here on out, I know I have a blog and my self to answer to! This isn't just going to be a battle of me against my weight. This is going to be a war! And it wont be over until I hit my goal and maintain it! 

I'm not looking to lose weight, I'm getting rid of it! I have no intention of 'finding' it again!